the great unknown.

I have a confession to make:

I had some serious trouble blogging during the second half of 2011. The first half was all, “I’M ON A DIFFERENT CONTINENT AND I HAVE TOO MUCH TO SAY ALL THE TIME!” but then the second half was like, “wow, this is the same thing I’ve been doing for three years.”

My life is so boring right now.

Except… is it?

Sure, it’s a heck of a lot easier to be sharing cool stuff all the time when you’re seeing new and cool things every day (hello, Eiffel Tower), but if there’s one thing I know about writing, it’s that there is always something to write about. Details are all around me, and those details are what make life sweet and full and whole.

I started this blog in 2008 to document my journey through college, and that journey is beginning to end. Everything was new and exciting then, too– out on my own, an adult, free to do whatever I pleased and stay up as late as I could ever want. Now, almost 4 years later, I know how to study and go to bed at a reasonable hour and get stressed out about my responsibilities and have figured out that hello, actually working = high grades.

I didn’t intend to make this a “HELLO 2012 & GOODBYE 2011!” post either, but it seems to be becoming one (at least in my head. Join me, why don’t you?). 2012 is the year I graduate from college and start a whole new chapter. It’s the first new year where the future was foggy: I haven’t any idea where I’ll be or what I’ll be doing when 2012 closes and 2013 rolls around. NO IDEA. And that scares my detail-oriented, long-term-planning self.

Don’t get me wrong: I’m as laid back and relaxed as the next girl. I can handle spur of the moment and will-of-the-wisp as well (or better) than your average person, and the unknown? I got on a plane and went to a country I’d never been to where they spoke a language that wasn’t on my tongue and I knew nobody. I can say to myself, “Self! you need to have an adventure today,” and get in my car and go enjoy my solitude wherever I choose to find it. It’s just… what will happen to me? Who will I become?

But HELLO, this is the rest of my life we’re talking about here. THE REST OF IT STARTS NOW! And isn’t that something to write about? So my goal (that I just made up right now) for 2012? notice the details, and record them as well as my communication degree and I can here on this blog. I think I’ll write for me this year. Usually I write for everyone else: “what will bring the most traffic to this site?” is aways flicking around through my head. Not this year!

(probably. I’m flying by the seat of my pants, here.)

the 2012 edition of just megan. is going to be exactly that: just megan. I’m not going to worry about posts that aren’t as exciting as they were last year. I’m going to write this year for me, for me to look back on and re-live and record, and I’m going to take you along for the ride!

Happy 2012!